As a Christian, I once believed in an all-powerful, all-loving God who cared deeply for His creation. But I no longer hold that view. Evil and suffering strike believers and non-believers alike.
What troubles me most is God's silence. If God is real and caring, why doesn’t He intervene more visibly? Why doesn’t He heal amputees, stop natural disasters, or prevent childhood cancers? Acts of divine intervention would bring immeasurable glory to God—no one could explain the mass healing of millions or the curing of cancer without invoking the supernatural. God is capable of these things, yet chooses not to act.
The believer responds, "God allows suffering for a greater purpose that we may not understand. As Romans 8:28 says, 'And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.' Jesus also warns against testing God in Matthew 4:7: 'Do not put the Lord your God to the test.' And, 'A crooked and perverse generation seeks for a sign.'"
But does God want me to believe in Him? Yes. Would an inexplicably supernatural sign lead me to believe? Yes. Does God choose to give me such a sign? No. It doesn’t make sense.
As I drift further from the faith I once knew, I am left with more questions than answers. God's silence, especially in response to my prayers for an unmistakable sign, is deafening.